I'd want someone to love me
someone next to me every night
know how to act, how to express myself
how to live and play and be what people like
I'd feel what you feel and know what it was
to share feelings of another
But I can't
If I could, I'd say how I felt
I'd hold you
I'd gaze with you
into the stars and dream
I'd bask in sunlight with you
and give thanks for every moment
But I can't
I'd return the feelings
of one-sided friendships
without looking to others
to see how they do it
I'd understand why they like me
maybe like myself too
I'd feel something
anything, but this emptiness
this hollow void
too black for anything to grow
a hol